2. fake friends

these days, it seems
like everyone’s trying
to leave, even when i
would plead for them
to stay, instead they’d
throw up the deuces,
say peace and beam.
lately, so many have
walked out that i’ve
lost count, so much
for always being here
for me when i need it.
they’d say it but now
i’ll never believe in it.

lost one that i thought
i could call my brother,
we looked so alike they
thought we were, but so
he goes, and gone too is
the one i had once called
a sister-in-law, i’d thought
she was sweet but now i’m
cut off, it honestly sucks, i
wish them the best, though.
they’re better than the one
who supported these words
but now wants to forget i’d
ever been a part of his life,
pulled the shit i told him i’d
been most scared of, like a
snake slithering down me,
what a way to go out, huh?

and then there’s another
i’ve done things for that
i would’ve never thought
he’d need this early, paid
out-of-pocket to help him
and offered up anything in
a time of desperate need,
but apparently, just wasn’t
enough, and so the story is
told in the same way as the
others: dropped without any
reason, has me feeling like
i’m nothing, never worthy of
the love they’ll give to others,
hope they aren’t faking it to
them in the same way they
did straight up to my face.

because no one deserves that.