nobody's sweetheart

never been

anybody’s best friend,

never been the one

in anyone’s future plans,

never the one

you introduce to the fam,

only in the scenarios

i play in my head,

i thought i’d be fine

on my own,

but i’ll admit,

i’m lost in all of it,

suddenly lovesick

tryna live

with the fact

that i’m only ever

a fallback,

singing love songs

in my room

to myself,

but never getting to know

what they really mean,

never getting

to be somebody

for somebody

‘cause nobody

ever truly needed me.

i’m nobody’s sweetheart,

missed my shot

with everyone

who could’ve been

“the one,”

didn’t even get

to treat love

like an experiment,

missed out

on the fun and flirty era

because i was waiting

for the wrong one,

lost my chance

with some good ones

because i was trying

not to miss it

with some i’d never have,

never left the door open

to let it in

because i built walls

to block the entrance,

waited too long

to break them down,

so good luck

climbing the rubble

if you wanna come in.

it’s where

i’ve always been,

but this house

no longer feels

like my home,

spending all my time

laying on the floor

stuck in my thoughts,

so lost in myself

that i don’t wanna get up,

thinking about how

everyone’s got someone,

starting to tie the knot

while i’m unraveling,

tripping over myself

and missing someone

that left me

on the shelf,

maybe we’d be together

in another universe,

but for me,

happy endings

don’t come so easy,

blink and i’ll be on

the last page

before you know it.

c’est la vie.