12. "one year"

september 15th, 12:00 am,
about to drop another new
full-length album right now.
one year after writing my
very first free-verse poem,
i’m on album #12 and
poem number #155,
or is it #153 since i
didn’t release two?

what a journey this
whole thing’s been.
once a kid just here
writing his feelings,
letting out shit that
shows the sad side
he tries not to show,
now i’m out and i’m
thinking of concepts
and combined themes,
who’d have thought
i’d be doing this all
in just a year’s time?

i brought out everyone,
come along for the ride.
watch as my heart breaks
and then fixes itself up,
watch as i work through
constant stress and fear,
watch as i try to learn and
figure my anxieties out,
watch and be glad as i
feel myself and get hype,
watch as this crazy-ass
roller coaster called “life”
takes its twists and turns
without any clear way of
knowing which comes first.

it’s been a trip, and
i’m glad that it was,
i always want to try to
make the best of it.
i thank you all for
reading and joining,
for making bad times
easier to deal with.
so where will we go
over this next year?
give me some time and
i’ll tell you the tale.

one year.