3. through the grapevine

another day,

another dose of drama,

already questioning my value

to the circle

while it’s shrinking

by the second,

questioning “who’s next?”

as i try to check

if they’re alright,

piecin’ shit together

when i’m learning

through the grapevine,

peelin’ back the layers,

what the hell

will be today’s find?

abstract was right,

sometimes,

it’s so spot on

it hurts,

got to my highest point

but let my guard down

to all this shit

i wish i never learned.

they split my world

into pieces,

feeling like everybody’s leaving

i’m just tryna keep the peace,

but i don’t get

to see ‘em,

it’s the season

of deceiving,

want to be the voice

of reason,

but who the hell

do i believe in?

how the hell

can i reach ‘em?

nobody even

wants to speak,

and the team

is ripping at the seams.

tired of losing

friends in the group

over shit i didn’t do,

like zeus says,

it’s miserable,

things never change,

this shit is pitiful,

everything’s split in two,

and i don’t want

to take sides,

but communication is gone,

they’re cutting lines,

it didn’t have

to come to this,

it could’ve been fixed,

but it’s too far gone,

years of friendship

stripped away,

my friends

saved my life in ’22,

but i wish

they could’ve saved

each other.

i wish it didn’t

end this way.