3. my dear, part 2

it was only a year ago
that we reconnected.
it was magical.
little did i expect
your name to pop up
in my messages
on that fateful day.
it was a rough time for me,
but you singlehandedly
made it better.

and then we went
and celebrated the beautiful
things in life,
we made memories,
we enjoyed ourselves,
we had fun,
and slowly but surely,
i fell in love.
head-over-heels, in fact,
you were flawless,
i’d thought for a minute
that i’d actually found
someone i “liked.”
never had that before,
but just the thought of you
put a smile on my face.

which only made it harder
when we fast-forwarded to now
and i found that you moved on,
a completely different person,
one that i hardly knew,
and i could only hope
they love you as much
as i did, maybe more.
someone who is
just as deep in love
as i was.
someone who puts you
above all else,
and makes you their queen.

as i watch from afar,
i’m glad that you’re happy,
because your smiling face
is the most important thing,
but it still does hurt.
not gonna lie,
tears were shed,
and i don’t say that much,
but i remember how deep
in love i was with you,
and how all of that is gone.
it took 19 years for me
to fall into it,
will it take 19 more
to return to it?

i’m not sure,
but i know that you’ve played
such a huge part in my life,
and i hope we can move on
and remain in contact.
you’re still an incredible person,
and i’m more than happy for you.
and even though i’m young,
i don’t think i’ll love anyone
quite as much as i loved you

my dear.