1. a lie

city lights

gleam from behind,

the night sky

is my only ally,

and i search

for somewhere quiet

while the cars

drive by,

and the cameras

shine in my eyes,

just this one time,

can i have a place

to hide?

tired of living

this lie,

been dying

to lie down

for just a minute,

they act like i’m winning

but my head’s spinning,

think i’m happy

because i have a mill,

but i’d give all these bills

to kill the persona

and end this war.

look in the mirror

and don’t even

recognize me anymore,

one glance

and i fall to the floor,

can’t bear to look,

want to return

to life before

the fame

and the glamour,

end this part of me

once and for all.