5. burnout

got so much to do,

but no time to get there,

and i’m teetering

on the edge

as i try to keep up,

my switch flickers off

but i don’t rest,

i push through the stress,

even if it wrecks me,

expecting a result

but getting nothing,

this should be more,

starting to feel

the chances of success

do nothing but lessen.

good things come

to those who wait,

but i’ve been patient

for way too long,

and as i look around,

i still wonder

if i lost my shot,

wonder if i’ll ever find

a sense of triumph

as a content soldier

trying to make

the battalion proud,

but instead, i drown,

with no slowing down,

i’m stuck with this burnout.

the tank’s on empty,

but frantically,

the pedal gets pushed,

trying to get it going,

but i’m slowing,

the lack of stamina’s

got my brain

all over the place,

moving every direction

except forward,

and i’m waiting

for the day where i crash,

buried by the burden,

back to feeling worthless,

thought i made progress,

but i’m back where i started.