8. run away

i’ve got things in life

i wanna leave behind,

the remnants

and memories

i’ve tried to forget,

burn it all away

and take the ones

that make life heavy,

remove me from the hell

that they create,

the toxicity that weighs

and takes a toll,

as their chaos grows,

it’s hard to go

and find a happy place,

because i’m stuck

in this awful state.

surprised to find

that time has not

been kind to you,

through all the years,

you never grew,

numbers went up

but you stayed the same,

never made a change,

i always took the blame,

all the things you did

for selfish gain,

made me believe

that i was at fault,

went about it

without a lick of regret,

and i’m sick and tired

of this insult.

i wanna run away,

change this part

of my story,

remove you from it,

handle myself

without the weight

of your pressure,

i wanna prove

my independence

that you contend

i have none of,

there’s no amending

for the sins of your past

when they bleed so much

into your present self,

i gave you every chance,

but now, i’m done.

just let me go.