alive

wow…
what a time to
be alive, right?
a lot changes in
a little bit, it’s…
just craziness…

let’s talk about it.

the new year awaits us,
so much to go and do,
kinda wonder how it’ll
change me this time.
if you told me last year
i’d have my heart broken
twice over, i’d laugh at you.
if you told me i’d write over
a hundred poems in a year,
i’d think you were crazy. hell,
if you said writing would be
the new career i would pursue,
i’d be shocked to say the least.

life moves so crazily sometimes,
you change up, others mix up,
you win some, you lose some,
people you thought would be
there with you forever are just
a distant memory now, but then
the people you didn’t expect are
the ones that care the most for ya.
and even when you look back at
the worst of those times, you can
appreciate the way you grew, and
just love yourself even more now.

it’s hard to think back on the
difficult, anxious moments,
the memories of pain, anger,
frustration and grief are there,
but you grow from them and
become stronger and happier,
more confident in yourself and
more ready to handle adversity.
last year had some difficulties,
the heartbreak, the stress, and
the anxious, overthinking mess,
but through it all, i made it alive,
and i’m proud to push on 20 now.

let’s see what this year provides.
let’s see the changes it brings
to myself and my friends, be them
positive or negative, let’s make
the best of even the worst moments.
i hope to make this a productive year,
and i hope my friends stick with me
no matter what i’m going through.
growing up can be scary, and it feels
like time is moving so quickly, but
let’s love it while we’re here, and
treat even the worst days as a gift.

alright, i like that…
some might think it’s
preachy or something…
but we need some more
good vibes in this world…
too much hate going off,
gotta…try to love a bit…
new school year ringing in,
wanna make it awesome…
and i don’t wanna lose
any friends through it,
hope you guys stick around…


yeah, that’s good.