1. tears that i never cried

this a tribute

to the tears

that i never cried,

thought i saved ‘em

for the day

that my mother died,

but not a single

little drip

falling from my eye,

mom, i’m sorry

that my plans went awry,

i never said goodbye,

i never went inside,

i never even tried

to put my pride

to the side,

or pay you back

and thank you

for the things

you supplied,

went outta the way

in the name

of saving my life,

i need a guide,

best one’s not alive,

wanna run and hide,

‘cause my hands feeling tied,

tryna take it in my stride,

but i can’t even confide,

hit me asking if i’m fine,

they ain’t getting a reply,

thrown in the fire,

how the hell do i survive?

without her telling me

that everything

will be alright?

i guess that

my reality check

just arrived,

i’ll never have

the drive i had

when mama was alive.

“i need you, mom.”