4. 2023 (bonus track)

right back

where i started,

thought i grew

in ‘22,

found some peace

and comfort,

quieted the mind,

i thought i finally

got myself right,

but somehow,

i was sent left

somewhere along the way,

stuck feeling sick

and i can’t

get myself back on track,

so now i’m driving

in the middle of nowhere,

tryna find the path

back home,

but i’m too far gone,

and i can’t stop thinking

of how it all went wrong.

rest in peace

to the ones

that didn’t make it,

memories popping back up

in the days since,

too much grief

in one year,

not one for the suit and tie,

but i guess 2023

wants everything to die,

like the friendships

celebrated one day

to be crushed in the next,

rang in the new year

then watched the circle shrink,

made me think

i could’ve helped more,

start to wonder

how much i really matter.

and now,

i’m stuck inside

with my brain

going haywire

because i can’t stop

thinking about you,

out of fear,

i tried to convince myself

the feeling wasn’t real,

but i can’t contain it,

and it’s got me back

in the place

i hated being in,

the smallest things

and the tiniest signs

could make or break

my entire day,

thought i’d kept myself away

from the love,

but it’s all i’m thinking of.

‘23 got me feeling

like a burden,

disappointing my peoples,

i know i make ‘em

wanna leave,

but i just want life

to treat us positively,

wanna know that i didn’t

waste all my luck

in the final months

of ‘22,

give me a sign

that it’ll figure itself out.

for now,

i’m stuck in nowhere,

no idea where i’m going,

just tired of walking

through the fire,

i’m tryna

make it back alive,

but will i even have time?

i’m tired of being tired.