1. borderline

falling in life

like my head

ain’t screwed on right,

stuck on the borderline

going out of my mind,

out of body

when i’m around,

got me flying

100 miles

but i can’t go

in a straight line,

no view to admire

in the middle of nowhere,

no light to shine

when i’m losing it all,

sanity escapes me,

got no one to call,

no purpose in life,

so i travel

on my own,

while my brain

is going

out of control.

fuck new friends,

i want my friends,

tried to be there

for the team,

but it seems

they don’t need me,

would they care

if i leave?

inconspicuously

make my escape

like a thief

in the night,

sneak away

without a peep,

like i was never there,

follow the lights,

wherever they lead,

take the path

and see where it goes,

little did i know

that lonely road

was the only place

i’d call home.

so this

is what it’s like

to be alone,

everyone else fought

but i was the one

who lost,

now they’re all gone,

king of self-sabotage

works his magic

like always,

every time

it goes right,

i find a way

to spite myself,

so all i’ve got

is these words i write,

as i take the wheel

and drive,

hoping to find

some direction

when all that’s left

is the endless nothing

i’m faced with.

where to next?