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i’m tryna be alright

but something’s always

getting in the way,

tryna control my mental

but every time

everything seems fine,

something comes along

and [CENSORED]

gave all my good vibes

to everyone else

and saved none

for myself,

so whenever

something nice arrives,

i always [CENSORED]

i admit i’m wrong

on things

i may not

be wrong about

just because i’m scared

of hurting someone,

or losing them

from my life,

already lost [CENSORED]

they say,

“don’t meet your heroes”

but mine are already gone,

cancer and suicide beat ‘em

before i could greet ‘em,

i’ll never get to [CENSORED]

spent a lot of time

thinking about

if i was gone,

i’d never do it

but what if

i went and [CENSORED]

how many would

miss me then?

would the tears

really fall down their eyes?

or would they

go along with their lives,

like i was [CENSORED]

brain keeps saying

nobody cares for me,

but that’s fine,

they love you most

when you [CENSORED]

nobody hears my side,

but that’s alright,

i hardly get a word in

before someone

cuts me off,

all my stories

go unheard

because i don’t [CENSORED]

i’ve been through the wringer

and i wouldn’t wish it

on a soul,

want the people i know

to be okay,

even though that means

they’ll be [CENSORED]

want to keep ‘em pleased

but am i what they need?

what does it matter?

soon as they see this,

they’ll [CENSORED]

this is just me venting,

i’m not tryna

do more damage,

i just want peace

when my brothers

hit me,

i got one by blood,

and i gotta [CENSORED]

so please don’t tell me

you get what i’m going through

unless you’ve seen

a breakdown

in front of your eyes,

try to get him

to [CENSORED],

it’s tough to help

when they can’t

help themselves,

the responsible one,

but i can’t be

a breadwinner,

dependent on me to [CENSORED]

and i’m tryna

settle into a role

as the good guy,

wanna keep the peace

and play nice,

when all they wanna do

is [CENSORED]

but let me stop myself

before another word

gets misconstrued,

all this talk

about disrespect,

never my intent,

don’t like to diss,

i’m not doing that shit,

all i said was [CENSORED]

and you [CENSORED]

distance but [CENSORED]

i wanna [CENSORED]

can i [CENSORED]

just a [CENSORED]

one word [CENSORED]

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fucking let me speak.