erase

i want to erase it all.

take away the pain,

the evil, the hurting,

remove all the bad,

negative things and

live to my happiest,

never afraid, shamed,

but i can’t do it today.

script can’t be changed,

this all feels the same,

it‘s never alright and

it never gets better,

shit’s on a new level,

i never can settle and

no matter what, i’m

just never enough.

not one to love and

i say that a lot but

it’s all just the truth,

i’m just gonna lose,

everyone’s leaving,

‘tis the season, just

another reason to

hate my own being.

i keep on pushing,

but it’s all so rough,

“smile through pain,”

that’s pretty tough,

attack as i type and i

never feel nice, can i

just have one night to

not feel so uptight?

freestyle writing, i’m

feeling so frightened,

want this all to end,

please never again,

it’s a vicious cycle,

i’ll never escape so

i’ll never feel vital

and never feel safe.

putting on a face?

i feel so ashamed,

deserve all the hate,

no i don’t feel great,

my life’s in a circle,

it’s all in reversal,

i’m just such a mess,

i’m never the best.

i want to erase it all.