1. what if

what if

i lose all of

my motivation

for the art?

what if

i give up myself

for the money?

what if

i end up

doing something

with myself

that i don’t want to do?

what if

i wait for love

and watch her go

to someone else?

what if

kendrick’s third verse

on the song of

the fear of

losing it all

was talking about me?

what if

i join jon

and hit that

all time low,

will i get up?

what if

i die

before i do

everything i want?

what if

i get too scared

to continue my career

because of some

bad critiques?

what if

my characters

end up too flat

and my stories

too bland?

what if

all my positive energy

just dies out

in a sudden flash?

what if

i’m stripped

of all my self-confidence?

what if

all my hopefulness

is just a facade?

what if

i exhaust my ideas

and burn out too quick?

what if

everything that i

could ever want

just goes away

in a sudden poof,

and i die alone

with nothing to stand for

and nothing to be proud of,

and everything

that i’ve done in life

just goes away

in the blink of an eye?

what if i fail?