9. uncertainty

you just never know
what could happen tomorrow.
how much different
your life is gonna be
in just a short time.
and i felt that,
in more ways than one.

december i wrote
an album in one day,
and i didn’t think
it would happen,
but the day
i wasn’t ready for
came crashing in
all too fast.
there’s been a void since,
that last day
laying in bed cuddling
with you one last time,
still hurts me now,
because i see your picture
and i want to hold you
one last time.

and as i write
these words on this page,
i didn’t think writing
was what i would do
for the rest of my life.
i thought i’d be
running around with a camera,
but when you peak
behind the curtain,
there’s some things
you just don’t want,
and it’s better to focus
on your needs.

i didn’t think
some of my best friends
would come into my life
this quickly.
i wasn’t sure
i’d make such close bonds
in a one-month span.
funny how
time changes
so quickly.
you don’t know
where things will be tomorrow,
so enjoy life now,
and as lewis always says…

keep moving forward