2. be okay

23 and i’m still

feeling these

growing pains,

everyone’s talking

about moving away,

i’m feeling like

one of these days,

i’ll be on my own,

not a place

to call home,

overwhelmed

by emotions,

fear of abandonment

taking its hold,

sinking deeper

at my lowest low,

wondering

if i’ll ever escape.

people i went

to school with

already having kids,

while i’m still

tryna figure out

how to live,

learning how

to pick up

my broken pieces

and put them

back together,

and now i’m finding

through the vine

that some people

i knew when i was young

are no longer alive,

life’s moving too fast,

and i’m scared,

paranoid,

i don’t wanna be next.

i’m just trying

to survive,

i’m just trying

to get by,

i’m just trying

not to die,

i’m just trying

to stay alive,

i’m just trying

to believe in life,

but when will life

believe in me?

when will the pain

and discomfort

subside?

when will i be free

of the demons

fighting in my mind?

i just wanna be okay.