4. crunch

i hate myself

whenever i’m not

working on something,

easily distracted,

my mind

spending all it’s time

wandering,

everything takes

my attention

all at once,

but i gotta focus,

all about the work,

hustle culture,

they told me

this is all it takes

to get to success,

put in the work

and you get

the results.

bullshit.

if hard work

was really the key,

i wouldn’t have

to worry

about a dollar,

i wouldn’t

have to fear

that i won’t

be livin’

in a house

this time next year,

my résumé

does a lot

of speaking,

but by the end

of the evening,

i’m still bleeding,

just want to have

one day

where i gain respect.

but instead,

i’m still typing

at 5 am,

the sun’s up

and i’m stuck

on this one line,

i can’t sleep

because i’m still scared

of the monster

under my bed,

it’s moving

to my head,

and it’s taking

everything from me,

my entire life is spiraling

right when everything

was looking up.

no breaks, just crunch.