7. come back

i see messages
like that, and i
start to feel bad,
i just wanted to
say it to see if
anyone would
feel sad if i left,
and now i’ve got
everyone sending
paragraphs and
telling me that the
people who don’t
read are lowlives.

i didn’t think a
harmless troll
would cause a
bit of hostility,
but here we are,
everybody wants
me to come back,
write not for them,
do it for me, even
if that’s how i’ve
been going this
entire time now.

it’s like a bunch of
people are bummed,
“come back and write,
with all your passion,
you wouldn’t just give
all of this up, don’t quit.”
everyone wants to know
if i’m okay, ironic since i
use poetry to help me if
i’m not feeling so great.
but everyone’s thinking
that i’m leaving because
i’m not feeling that good.

i didn’t think they’d care.