6. therapist

i’m a great therapist

for someone

who could really use one,

always struggled

to ask for help

because i felt

i had to clean up

my messes myself,

i suppress it

so i don’t overwhelm,

but now i’m the one

feeling it worse,

distract myself

from my problems

by taking on

everyone else’s,

because the pain

i’ve felt

is something i’d never

want anyone else

to have to go through.

i’ve had trust issues

since i was 17,

made me act out

in some bad ways,

but i’m learning

not to dwell on

my past mistakes,

i’ve had my beefs

but bitter’s something

i’m never trying to be,

that petty shit is bad

for my anxiety,

so this is the most

you’ll see from me

as far as responding,

i’d rather take

the high road

than go back and forth,

trying to be better

instead of getting

caught up in drama,

because i’ve got

too many out there

that need my help.

i’m not tryna

say too much

for the sake

of protecting my people,

I just want them

to have some peace,

don’t even care

who’s praying for me,

‘cause i’m saving mine

for them,

i wanna let ‘em know

that life will be okay,

even though i barely have

my own head on straight,

i’m not okay

but i wanna make sure

everyone else is safe,

people pleaser

in the worst way

because i don’t know

my own purpose.

maybe one day i’ll learn it.